ahonui has been sick since last week friday, and although it hasn't been a very fun past few days for our little man, i've been staying home to care for him -- which i am absolutely LOVING. the past few days & nights we have been experiencing varying moods from the boy...from deep throat coughs and cries, to jumping for joy on the bed and tickle wars. brandon and i are doing our best to keep him comfortable and content.
after spending the last two days here at home instead of heading off to work, i'm
really getting the "wannabe-a-homemaker-type-mother" bug. don't get me wrong...i
do love my job at BYUH for the most part. i love feeling like i'm helping students create a bright future for themselves. i love that students feel comfortable enough to continually come back to see me. and i love that i can feel like i'm making somewhat of a difference in someone's life everyday.
at the same time, however, i
REALLY LOVE my son and family life even more. i love waking up in the morning without feeling rushed to make breakfast, brush ahonui's teeth, change his diaper, get myself ready, and run out the door to work. i love having time to clean the entire apartment, run errands, wash/dry/fold the laundry, and cook all of our family's meals. i love drawing his bath, chasing him around the apartment, and putting his elmo pjs on at night. and it dawned on me how much i loved it all so much more when i put him down for his nap this afternoon. as i laid next to him on the bed watching him sleep, the cool wind blew the curtains open, and the warm sunlight shone through the windows...and i knew there was no other place that i would rather be. in that moment everything was perfect and my heart ached wishing i could experience that moment every day.
but alas, the reality of cost of living in hawaii sinks in and the daily grind of going back to my cubicle will resume early tomorrow morning. sacrifice is a part of life, right? i just hope it's all worth it.