valentine's day holds a special place in my heart. no pun intended. why, you ask? well, since you asked...
this will take you there!
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i love this man. |
while i can't say that we have incredibly romantic valentine days as much as the first one we shared, i can say with a surety that with each passing year it comes around with a lot more love. every february i would hint to brandon that i'd appreciate (not want, not need, not "you must do this, or else" - just... appreciate. lol) the whole commercialized v-day sha-bang. i'd add to these hints with "because it's our special day!" to build on the importance of flowers, balloons, etc. he'd usually follow through on my requests with special deliveries to my office, so that i could relish in the covetous glances from female co-workers and incoming students. i'm so mature, i know.
but this year i grew up. i told him, "no need anything this year." and i actually really meant it. we're not entirely poor, but we're not exactly loaded either. since the money that he spends on "sweet nothings" comes out of a joint account - i'm pretty much paying for the lovely-smelling ginger leis myself. i guess it took me 8 years to figure out that those dollars could be better spent elsewhere. i'm so bright. needless to say, brandon was elated and relieved to be freed from the shackles of vday creativity.
however - this morning i woke up to the sounds of clanking in the kitchen. brandon usually makes cereal or oatmeal for ahonui before the boy heads off to school. but this morning was different. i know pouring milk into a bowl didn't require that much noise. a few minutes later, as i'm laying in bed, here comes brandon with two plates: scrambled eggs with diced onions and pocho (portuguese) sausage, and pancakes! breakfast! in bed!!! simple, sweet, and saving money...the best way to melt my heart.

i used to pride myself on the similar characteristics i felt that i share with my late father: a patient, positive, laid-back, and good-natured attitude. no, not egotistical one bit, thank you very much. seriously though, i thought that i would rate pretty decent in sticky situations with a cool head and slow to anger demeanor. lately though, i'm finding that my fuse has gotten a lot shorter, i'm reaching my boiling point a lot quicker, my limits are narrower, i'm maxxed out of patience, i have a low tolerance for stupid, to be quite honest. and it makes me sad...because it feels so unlike me to behave as such.
so late lastnight, as we left angel's ice cream shop after celebrating vday as a family, i almost hit two oblivious college kids crossing the street during my green light and their red hand. i got so frustrated, that i screamed and displayed some unladylike obscenities because they were casually strolling across instead of scurrying along like they should have been. as we continued on the road, brandon started quietly singing "i love to seeee the teeeemple...". and i couldn't help but laugh, calm down, and take a deep breath.
i'm grateful that my better half can keep me in check, and bring me to a better place. i love that he loves me despite my shortcomings, and that he can be patient with others when i'm running low on the stuff. there's a dixie chicks song that i listen to when my day gets a little crazy. i'd like to think that the lyrics describe what brandon does for me so often...and for that, i'm grateful.
"And I come to find a refuge in the
Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me"
love you, bran.