after spending the last two days here at home instead of heading off to work, i'm really getting the "wannabe-a-homemaker-type-mother" bug. don't get me wrong...i do love my job at BYUH for the most part. i love feeling like i'm helping students create a bright future for themselves. i love that students feel comfortable enough to continually come back to see me. and i love that i can feel like i'm making somewhat of a difference in someone's life everyday.
at the same time, however, i REALLY LOVE my son and family life even more. i love waking up in the morning without feeling rushed to make breakfast, brush ahonui's teeth, change his diaper, get myself ready, and run out the door to work. i love having time to clean the entire apartment, run errands, wash/dry/fold the laundry, and cook all of our family's meals. i love drawing his bath, chasing him around the apartment, and putting his elmo pjs on at night. and it dawned on me how much i loved it all so much more when i put him down for his nap this afternoon. as i laid next to him on the bed watching him sleep, the cool wind blew the curtains open, and the warm sunlight shone through the windows...and i knew there was no other place that i would rather be. in that moment everything was perfect and my heart ached wishing i could experience that moment every day.
but alas, the reality of cost of living in hawaii sinks in and the daily grind of going back to my cubicle will resume early tomorrow morning. sacrifice is a part of life, right? i just hope it's all worth it.
7 comments:
So true!! I know how you feel!
Hey harms, isn't it wonderful being able to stay at home with your son!! I guess that i could take being a homemaker for granted, but your post has made me smile and appreciate the smaller aspects of being able to be with my two growing kids everyday!!! hmm, im not sure if im ready for our third but once you have one, im sure you can three huh?!
loved your post!!!
ohh were due for our 3rd baby October 3rd!!
thanks for this post harm. sometimes i forget to be thankful.:)
ditto...you truly reminded me of how great it is to be able to stay at home with Ilihia! and trust me...the sacrifice is worth and Ahonui will thank you for providing for him by working hard someday! :)
I hear ya girl, it's the nature or the beast- but hopefully one day I'll be able to experience the joys of being a SAHM aswell!
I can honestly say I've experienced the same ache you're experiencing. I'm a stay-at-home mom now, but for the first yr of my son's life, I was in school/working and it was SO hard. But you gotta do what you gotta do right?
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