the thing is...i don't think i was quite prepared for the latter of these parenting responsibilities so early on in my son's life. so i find myself wondering if most young mothers/fathers/parents/guardians have feelings of inadequacy or unpreparedness in regards to being a parent? i know that i love my child more than words could ever express, but is that love really enough? i know that i would do everything that i can to ensure my child(ren) the best life that i am able to give them, but again - i still feel that they deserve more than that.
lately, concerns over my son's everyday safety, social skills, nutritional needs, physical abilities, and behavior as a three year old toddler has somewhat consumed my thoughts. perhaps the knowledge that another young spirit will be relying on brandon & i for these needs and much more to be met in a few short months. or perhaps the thoughts of my own shortcomings of not be able to meet those needs is slowly creeping into my head.
i suppose the whole "taking things one day at a time" theory can be followed now and moreso once our little girl comes along to keep things sane and peaceful in our humble abode. but of course, any other thoughts of how to keep a smile like this going for a bit longer than a bubble session is always welcome.
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hey harm! i think every mother feels somewhat inadquate to raise a little 3 year old. I'm sure Ahonui will love his little sister to pieces! But i totally know you are feeling esp now that it's getting closer. i remember crying a lot after gabby was born cus i felt bad for ava and worried that she wasn't getting enough attention-however-tane and her got really close during that time of transitioning from one kid to two kids and you'll be suprised how well adapted a 3 year old could be once he sees his cute little sister. HE'll seem a lot more grown up once you have a little newborn in the house-so take advantage of just him...oh and brandon too-cus he won't be getting much attention either. lol jk
Yeah. It's totally overwhelming. I am realizing more and more how little I know about what I am doing and how much I feel like I'm hoping for the best. There is surely wisdom in not looking to far into the future because that could be really burdensome. Doing the best you can every day is pretty much all you can do. Even if the best is just to make sure they eat a carrot amidst all those cookies. Hahaha.
i TOTALLY know what you mean. every day i have the same battle going on in my head.
BY THE WAY . . . WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? where are you?? i meeeeeeesssss you. and am looking forward to more updates SOOON!
ps. and we need some pregnancy pics harm. for posteritys sake. no worries. we're all huge.
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